Many great Friends and Family, have been asking me if I am okay? I politely say yes for the hundrendth time that day. I swear from 3:00 p.m. to 6:00 p.m. yesterday my phone was a buzzing. I LOVED IT!! It’s nice to know that you are loved and this was scary for them too and you are able to talk about it.
I’M OKAY!!!! I SERVE AN AWESOME GOD!!!
It’s Tuesday MORNING, I’m still buzzing with a slight headache. I have ringing in my ears and I’m still a little groggy. Groggy, because they are giving me 5 different medications and they just don’t work well. One keeps me up and the other one puts me to sleep, but I am supposed to take together right before I go to bed. Well, the one that keeps me awake did. 
Having a stroke was nothing that big. No surgeries, no holes drilled, just a terrible headache. A headache where EVERYTHING was making me sick. I could smell gurney’s guy’s sweat and wanted to vomit. I’m sorry for all you who are still eating your Lucky Charm’s this morning. The world spun a few times in my room. But I held it all in…….
Today, I’m in a WHIRL of appointments and consultations. I don’t think I have a day in the next week without an appointment or class about my health.
I’m in a WHIRL of what could have’s and what should have’s?
I’m in a WHIRL of the reactions … thoughts…. tears…
Yes, you tend to weep after you have a stroke, it’s absolutely life changing and earth shattering. I am DIFFERENT than I was before.
But one thing that hasn’t changed just because my brain decided to hiccup, is my LOVE and THIRST for God. I love Him so much that I am willing do anything for HIM..
He gave me beautiful people like you in my life and INCREDIBLE Gifted Pastors and A Church where I can WORSHIP Him day in and day out.
Most of all… most importantly….
He gave me my love of my life my husband Paul and my 3 kids to cherish and hold and love and grow old together. They are my world!!!
I’m okay… I am not stopping in my pursuit in following Jesus…
I’m re-organizing a little
Join me ….???
5 Comments
November 27, 2007 at 4:27 pm
I’m not only with you, I’m for you and I love you.
November 27, 2007 at 9:52 pm
I love you Heidi! I am so incredibly thankful that you are well. But more than that – that you know Whose you are! To find inspiration in your trial almost seems wrong – but God reaches through absolutely everything! You are so tightly gripped in His hands Heidi! Can you imagine not knowing Him? Love you beautiful!
November 29, 2007 at 3:37 pm
Heidi,
You’re the best. What an example of faith in the midst of suffering. You are living proof that God’s grace is sufficient.
Know that you are loved,
gaj
December 1, 2007 at 7:32 am
Heidi the Lord be with you darling you are on my prayer list. I will share something with you i was born with Cerebral Palsy 58 years ago and I understand that is considered a stroke while being born so we have something in common already. I have never let anything stop me and I never will. The Lord has blessed me thousands of times over and I know HE is doing the same for you sweety. Hang in there and I hope to hear from you soon I am looking for a blogging buddy so if you know of anyone let me know.
Take Care and God Bless You,
Terri Gordon xoxoxoxox
December 8, 2007 at 6:34 pm
Congratulations Heidi,
Gods is always faithful to His saints. we cant be able to compare his love with anything. your gift to Him should to sacrifice your life to His service Heidi.
you lacked good health with a reason. this one reminds me of the question asked to our master Christ Jesus ‘WHY WAS THIS MAN BORN BLIND?’
it was not of his parents sins nor his own but for God to Glorify His name.
CHEER UP BROTHER!!!
your brother
peter mwangi
kenya