Journal Entry: January 14, 2008… 4:30 a.m.
This thing about prayer has me thinking hard about what it looks like for I am an imperfect person to convey with an immeasurable God.
Why bother?
What does it look like?
What should it look like?
Am I at all on the right track?
Do I listen well?
Who am I to make requests?
These questions and more have left me, at times, frozen without words and hesitant..
“Everyone approaches God with a set of preconceptions gleaned from many sources: church, Sunday school lessons, books, movies, sermons by television evangelists, stray comments by believers and skeptics alike. These tend to linger, as afterimages burned into the mind. … I spend time with my closest friends not because of what they can do for me but for the pleasure of their company. How can I do that with God?”
Philip Yancy
Some questions that are harder to answer are not because I don’t know the answers but because I don’t know how to put into practice
… the answers that I know are true.
5 Comments
July 25, 2008 at 1:09 am
I ♥ YOU!
The Bible also says to come before HIS throne with boldness and to know that you will receive Mercy…and then there is the verses that say Be still and Know I am God.
I try to keep in my mind that God is God, soveriegn and loving…and even though HE has a plan, part of that plan is for me to spend time with HIM, and love on HIM, and praise HIM, and look to HIM for every decision…wish I could get into words what happens to me when I just hang out with HIM…HE is so real, and lots of fun, and at times my teacher who knows exactly what I need to hear. But sometimes HE is just silent with me, and we just enjoy that company thing…prayer is a lot of things…if I had to make it one word it would be…communication..not just an “I want” thing.
Love you Princess…wishing I could do the night beach thing with you! yes I am stuck on that..and will probably dream about it tonight.
July 25, 2008 at 2:54 am
there is so much packed into your final statement. woah…
July 25, 2008 at 5:36 pm
im sending this to a ‘dear’ friend.
again…you amaze me sister.
i love you!
July 26, 2008 at 4:05 am
First visit – something tells me it won’t be the last?
After reading part’s 1,2 and 3 you strike a very resonant ‘chord’ in me. If you have read my whole blog ( no need – most of it is probably ‘boring
) you will know i was more of an Atheist for my ‘formative years’ and into my 30’s, but i had a thirst for knowledge of Everything and inevitably anyone who does that needs to question the issue of ‘God’.
Being a ‘finite’ human it is impossible to fully KNOW all of God – it is hard with any real degree of ‘certainty’ to even know if He is real or just a deceit of our sadly incompetent minds that we trick ourselves into believing – or trick ourselves into unbelieving (belief and faith are indisputable – ALL humans have them, just not all humans believe in the same thing or in the same way – we need to find OUR way – the one that gives us each the best life ‘possible’ for the stage of development ( evolution if one prefers?) we are currently at).
like you i am Seeking – seeking to know how to best be in a relationship WITH Him ( not so sure i like the ‘Him’ aspect still – i have a fairly ‘unique’ God perspective and mainly use the term ‘Him’ for ease of communication with believers)
like you i think ( too much) and mainly come to Faith through ‘knowledge’ – knowing WHAT to ‘do’ – like in prayer for example – how do i do it ‘right’???
like you i have more questions than answers right now…
JUST like you… knowing the answers is a LOT easier than being able to LIVE them and practice them daily.
like you i also ‘know’ what is True.
Tam has a ‘key’… knowing that she (we) are ‘In Progress’…
as long as we have the desire to know ‘Him’ and seek him in ALL places ( for an Infinite God MUST be in everything) at all times and we recognise we walk IN Him – in His Will and become ever more aware of this…
we are making ‘progress’.
One step at a time along The Path He has set for us.
Sometimes we just need to sit and rest and admire His handiwork all around us because maybe we went too far too fast or just because it is right we should find rest as well as strength in Him
like you.. i don’t have ALL the answers yet.. but i kinda like the ones i have.. and the ones He is showing me everywhere i ‘look’.
love,
<B
July 26, 2008 at 2:55 pm
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