Thursday Swap – Who I am?

Today I am participating in the Thursday Swap at Inprogress.  Let me explain, Tammy Hodge whom I call a prolific blogger swaps with another blogger on Thursdays.  So I am on hers today and she is on mine.

Tammy “Tam” Hodge on my blog ??  Wow that just made me gulp. 

 I first met Tam about two years ago, right after I had suffered a stroke @ 41 years old.  She encouraged me almost daily to find God through it all. I did.  She pushed me to write when it was darkest of days, but I did. I cannot ever repay her for that.  Today I am a different women because of what she poured into me.

Although our eyes have never met and we have never hugged, our hearts have.  I hold Tam amongst a very few women I REALLY share life with.  She’s passionate about God, family, and Life.  Love her so.

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who am i?

i can answer with….”a child of God. forgiven, redeemed and renewed.” and while that is true – it isnt who i am in personality. but the “child of God” answer is the safe way to go. the “christianese” approach. although, if im being honest my answer would look more like…

abrasive, at times.
judgmental.
encourager.
undependable.
procrastinator.
faithless.
funny.
hopeful.
lazy.
apprehensive.
random.
thoughtful.
strong.
fragile.

and in all of this…the good, the bad, the ugly…God just wants me to come. come as i am. because it will be in His presence, at His feet that i will be transformed. this is not to say that i can not be used as i am right now, because i can. but there is a better me tomorrow, and the next, and the next day after that. and so the Body grows and strengthens.

but for this moment – i will come to Him just as i am…

Just as I am, without one plea
But that thy blood was shed for me
And that thou bidd’st me come to thee
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

Just as I am and waiting not
To rid my soul of one dark blot,
To thee, whose blood can cleanse each spot,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

Just as I am, though tossed about
With many a conflict, many a doubt,
Fightings and fears within, without,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

Just as I am, poor, wretched, blind;
Sight, riches, healing of the mind,
Yea, all I need, in thee to find,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

Just as I am, thou wilt receive,
Wilt welcome, pardon, cleanse, relieve;
Because thy promise I believe,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.

Just a I am; thy love unknown
Has broken every barrier down;
Now to be thine, yea, thine alone,
O Lamb of God, I come, I come.